tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-45298649564723310942024-03-19T10:45:17.745+00:00Merry DazeOften in the mud always looking to the lightmerry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.comBlogger34125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-73726524526389732042011-11-08T16:20:00.006+00:002011-11-08T16:27:51.365+00:00There will come a time...<iframe width="560" height="315" src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/rZMUgZRew3w" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe><br /><br />Love Mumfords, love this.merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-42736255312279483412011-09-11T19:33:00.007+01:002011-09-12T21:51:25.134+01:00Alex Cherney's Ocean SkyIn my travels on Twitter - which I love for world news and friendly chatter, I came across a link - from the QI Elves - which led me to Alex Cherney's "Ocean Sky".<br /><br />This is an award-winning short sequence of time-lapse photography, which he shot from a beach in Southern Australia. It is possibly the most beautiful film I have ever seen.<br /><br />What an insight for an average star-gazing northern hemisphere dweller like me.<br />You can actually SEE the Milky Way...<br />Bravo Alex. And thank you.<br /><br /><iframe src="http://player.vimeo.com/video/24253126?portrait=0" webkitallowfullscreen="" allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="225" width="400"></iframe><p><a href="http://vimeo.com/24253126">Ocean Sky</a> from <a href="http://vimeo.com/terrastro">Alex Cherney</a> on <a href="http://vimeo.com/">Vimeo</a>.</p><br /><a href="http://www.terrastro.com/"><br />www.terrastro.com</a><br /><br />... How much more remains unseen?merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-63598609030886404832011-06-17T09:51:00.009+01:002011-06-17T12:52:26.607+01:00Looking into the Light<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiCVQv6FO03ak8IVtCLFXJXnyng3waCVWW1-SmxZ0tbSzhhj6MxywtOq32jrLP4JsZ5kVjRs0dLe_pdrucmXxcvFjO3tpX-r7TrfHkExJhoEKoEDFelFT9YVblMr6mKIl8v0yqgMrI61qA/s1600/image.jpeg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 310px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiCVQv6FO03ak8IVtCLFXJXnyng3waCVWW1-SmxZ0tbSzhhj6MxywtOq32jrLP4JsZ5kVjRs0dLe_pdrucmXxcvFjO3tpX-r7TrfHkExJhoEKoEDFelFT9YVblMr6mKIl8v0yqgMrI61qA/s400/image.jpeg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5619108752885135714" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;">Like my sunflower avatar<br />I'm always looking for the light.<br />Aren't we all?<br /><br /><br />Thank God:<br />for counselling and clarity<br />for Mum and Dad<br />for my three independent super hero Sons<br /><br /><br />Shutting up and<br />Pressing on..</div>merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-52953225035118440462011-05-21T00:01:00.014+01:002011-11-08T16:21:52.132+00:00Volare<span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic; color: rgb(0, 0, 153);font-size:130%;" >The Gipsy Kings - my secret soul brothers.<br /><br />Volare, cantare nel blu... To fly, to sing in the blue sky...<br /><br /></span><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;font-size:130%;" ><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">This song means a lot to me. It's so joyful, it shouts delight in the moment and rejoicing together (and - and - ssh! - it always stirs my secret flamenco dancer ambitions. Yes. Two big left feet though. Sigh.)</span><br /><br /></span><br /><iframe src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/oNgSeJzLJFc" allowfullscreen="" frameborder="0" height="510" width="640"></iframe><br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;font-size:130%;" ><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">For Rob, who means a whole lot more to me, who I miss with all my heart, for him I post this today - his anniversary - with the happiest memories - of </span></span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);font-size:130%;" ><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">great times together, of being ourselves and of oh - delight!<br /><br /></span></span><span style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;font-size:130%;" ><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">I find it better to laugh and dance than to cry these days (although sometimes it's bloody difficult).</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">I do think he would laugh heartily at the irony of today being</span> <a href="http://www.ebiblefellowship.com/outreach/tracts/may21/">Rapture Day !<br /></a></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;"><br /></span></span> <span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(0, 0, 153);font-size:130%;" >For all who love and miss him and carry him in heart - respect to you. </span><span style="font-size:130%;"><br /><br /><br /></span><span style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(0, 153, 0);font-size:130%;" ><span style="color: rgb(153, 0, 0);">Robert Chambers<br />2nd January 1964 - 21st May 2010</span></span>merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.com13tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-17665869714511954352011-04-03T10:42:00.007+01:002011-04-03T11:34:39.853+01:00Mothers' Day<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhvYXpNR3WtGGFc4oRDCLJwXbcoyeOKDNa0_jdTPOZ68BkEhJRAiK-AxUu42DaTnHaWUBPWMulI1YwbcUOPgT2tm8r1sbD5Me4W6RAxPyOSMo5kz4OnP7Ga7kJ0WN4Yjf7EFBI0cKk0BPo/s1600/Lion-cuddle_1858192c.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 400px; height: 250px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhvYXpNR3WtGGFc4oRDCLJwXbcoyeOKDNa0_jdTPOZ68BkEhJRAiK-AxUu42DaTnHaWUBPWMulI1YwbcUOPgT2tm8r1sbD5Me4W6RAxPyOSMo5kz4OnP7Ga7kJ0WN4Yjf7EFBI0cKk0BPo/s400/Lion-cuddle_1858192c.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5591290838204444162" /></a><br /><br />Joyful picture! <br /><a href="http://www.telegraph.co.uk/earth/wildlife/8409831/Mothers-pride-a-break-from-the-wild-life.html">(from the Daily Telegraph)</a><br /><br />With much love to my own Mum - who taught me how to mother. Happy Mothers' Day Mum!<br /><br />And for my own three sons (Aw, soppy Mum! Sorry lads!) - Just to remind you - each individual one of you - Guess how much I love you! (OK, OK, I'll leave it there -)<br /><br />*Grin*merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-71331821546017253352011-03-20T19:57:00.015+00:002011-03-20T23:09:33.765+00:00Flying!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiT866NX7r5-7f9LqdIRVDN0B8ZPJTJ-k550L9-pX85o47KWW4oQ3FyYaUREARY4PqYLQvfcJOvxYJf_hPZR3isKYXoBpE83J3_stp0iW8byVbqnDK8r42dGyHh0aqioihTYnnVsr1-05M/s1600/P1010057.JPG"><img style="float:left; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiT866NX7r5-7f9LqdIRVDN0B8ZPJTJ-k550L9-pX85o47KWW4oQ3FyYaUREARY4PqYLQvfcJOvxYJf_hPZR3isKYXoBpE83J3_stp0iW8byVbqnDK8r42dGyHh0aqioihTYnnVsr1-05M/s320/P1010057.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5586264598049237762" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQWpbUCJWrt-FTb0oQr1hM_dCzDkVfLkFIh-_ioC6Ceqh3xpzh_6xSeLjYBVKX55k4kpyiHKeAcR28FN3IFd2HhKS-IyZHoSguozJ500Ne6hyAxUYJMZcCkZXqIcKCCIOxgOTvVjqmkmI/s1600/P1010053.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQWpbUCJWrt-FTb0oQr1hM_dCzDkVfLkFIh-_ioC6Ceqh3xpzh_6xSeLjYBVKX55k4kpyiHKeAcR28FN3IFd2HhKS-IyZHoSguozJ500Ne6hyAxUYJMZcCkZXqIcKCCIOxgOTvVjqmkmI/s320/P1010053.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5586262393539393810" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgi7Ah1eXodBIzc3G3FOexMF4E9RO_CzvtH5vO6IC8vueQB-G8jxBpHaPBnA7yv5nsuTSEd4yhpxK6KhSe144qih_5TAq6T5vXoA9SlTEJZ9BAulzySnZqX8W1FpizbMgY_xItjcvYWbrQ/s1600/P1010052.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgi7Ah1eXodBIzc3G3FOexMF4E9RO_CzvtH5vO6IC8vueQB-G8jxBpHaPBnA7yv5nsuTSEd4yhpxK6KhSe144qih_5TAq6T5vXoA9SlTEJZ9BAulzySnZqX8W1FpizbMgY_xItjcvYWbrQ/s320/P1010052.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5586262387931445634" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhVK90vntqpW5tXyIc08CEnGX4ouvgUNEZtP8aGLiU-EPloVu1HrXS1WLNdfmPLJBo2ZLm1QhJeWWr4Jt1DSheJD44qlMW89syoxpM-puw23-bf7f3oWrjNA-ss3mFygc31gMKhhYoQhdw/s1600/P1010043.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhVK90vntqpW5tXyIc08CEnGX4ouvgUNEZtP8aGLiU-EPloVu1HrXS1WLNdfmPLJBo2ZLm1QhJeWWr4Jt1DSheJD44qlMW89syoxpM-puw23-bf7f3oWrjNA-ss3mFygc31gMKhhYoQhdw/s320/P1010043.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5586262383846173202" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Today I've been flying from Biggin Hill, in a light aircraft, flown by Tom, my eldest son. He's training for a private pilot's licence. <br /><br />In the back seat I was two things - silent while he did his thing - and terribly proud. Boy to man. His own man. <br /><br />(And a darn sight more focussed and competent than his mother has ever been!)<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhxfgEM7nCaum0MxJnGALDOzcCdffOswIgOG9_tO9vajsRKYRwxQf0h7YDG1BCvrZCHGtM083Om2AegnZ6bZKpdoofBlNluq-iGJLonoeNpGdbjtTYSMhzbPTo1X2smhr3Nsmsb-HZMJ5g/s1600/P1010040.JPG"><img style="float:left; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhxfgEM7nCaum0MxJnGALDOzcCdffOswIgOG9_tO9vajsRKYRwxQf0h7YDG1BCvrZCHGtM083Om2AegnZ6bZKpdoofBlNluq-iGJLonoeNpGdbjtTYSMhzbPTo1X2smhr3Nsmsb-HZMJ5g/s320/P1010040.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5586302423271068306" /></a> Go Tom. Keep being yourself.<br /><br />And thanks for showing me the world from above and the sun shining above the clouds. It was magic...<br /><br />Hooray for You!!!merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.com17tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-51336054895287030772011-03-12T09:06:00.009+00:002011-10-12T23:00:25.470+01:00Focus and Balance<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg0l6zHlB9eCNKT-ZZ6F4vLFTQ7-sZt9L1lBxzupSl_IxgngxK6QyGQ20sB14IGL4PuHbDsZLaksRpCwsjjQ7fxXbyjyIsT8-uNZLOafjWWYI11ljC5VN-G-1nj-jV0ZXg5P1aGftheTrk/s1600/Adi_Holzer_Werksverzeichnis_850_Lebenslauf.jpg"><img style="cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 324px; height: 400px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg0l6zHlB9eCNKT-ZZ6F4vLFTQ7-sZt9L1lBxzupSl_IxgngxK6QyGQ20sB14IGL4PuHbDsZLaksRpCwsjjQ7fxXbyjyIsT8-uNZLOafjWWYI11ljC5VN-G-1nj-jV0ZXg5P1aGftheTrk/s400/Adi_Holzer_Werksverzeichnis_850_Lebenslauf.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5583312972733625602" /></a> <br /><a href="http://www.adiholzer.com/index_uk.html">Adi Holzer</a><br />"Life" (Like Tightrope Walking)<br /><br />Great picture, great artist. Inspiring. Teaches me that to perform something tricky it's necessary to carry a (balanced) weight. There's no end to learning. At least, I expect not...<br /><br />(Smile)merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-91073613092881657082011-01-09T14:37:00.008+00:002011-01-09T15:39:18.168+00:00A Flash of Spring<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi5rL8OX7z3CU9NOwtFL2-vPEB5gfM8QdSJsSvMcg2MQjUO3WaPNn2HJb79s1eESixV-1-uV9EyRS-ks5dBFtINeR3HuPaf3gPq744QdZBwEOdVA9ZakZ4C6SPoQag5ZDLCJyjdJIWXW8Y/s1600/sun-through-winter-tree-branches-600x400.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 214px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi5rL8OX7z3CU9NOwtFL2-vPEB5gfM8QdSJsSvMcg2MQjUO3WaPNn2HJb79s1eESixV-1-uV9EyRS-ks5dBFtINeR3HuPaf3gPq744QdZBwEOdVA9ZakZ4C6SPoQag5ZDLCJyjdJIWXW8Y/s320/sun-through-winter-tree-branches-600x400.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5560206568489353634" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh1F-s50bBQXfOAkYnFaBbGyPOUvMrewRQn44S6F_Uj5l5Gaq_C1OSjvW6-z1KL0zqb5KlBWhl7Npad5D3L9Q_398yZBtWuz4o4uuoOqSMzLKsh1s5Iq-r0X8zRZl_dqnU23J42LiVjsPw/s1600/squirrel_-1387.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh1F-s50bBQXfOAkYnFaBbGyPOUvMrewRQn44S6F_Uj5l5Gaq_C1OSjvW6-z1KL0zqb5KlBWhl7Npad5D3L9Q_398yZBtWuz4o4uuoOqSMzLKsh1s5Iq-r0X8zRZl_dqnU23J42LiVjsPw/s320/squirrel_-1387.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5560204961137980562" /></a><br />19 Days into Winter and hey, today a Flash of Spring. Hooray. <br /><br />I've just tidied my garden after the snow and the ice. Leaves from the park mulched the new plantings very well. I had feared that the old hydrangea in deep shade by the garage was a goner. I've been loathe to go near it until today...<br /><br />You see, I kind of bonded with that hydrangea when I moved in here almost two years ago. It was a cheery and spirited little fellow I thought, with only one flower-head - struggling in poor soil - I top dressed it, staked it, watered it often, chatted to it... As you do... And it took off tremendously. Lush dark leaves and a bloom on every stem.<br /><br />After the snow I looked at it and it looked at me. Curtains I sniffed. But no! Today up close and personal I see a mass of fat buds on every stem. Nature triumphs.<br /><br />Soon it'll probably snow once more! But - a day like today will keep me going for some time yet.<br /><br />I'm resting up till I start working again. Enjoying being a home parent for the kids. Redecorating and taking time to let this last year settle and a New Year begin. I miss Rob constantly. That won't change. But my sense of purpose already has. Life is right here, right now... <br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhKXZ1CBhPnJZwqo2GIRdsWKcG4xpll8xu0BFQo3arqovJ7IqiTzWD1-CvkqzrOgARDxHvBo4SMGrIjWR78mB02aSOzJ7CWbjFdL7m-V1AtIsL6ID6ov_0idKmRCPeFslN4KL6LhuJ4csk/s1600/flipper.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 136px; height: 200px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhKXZ1CBhPnJZwqo2GIRdsWKcG4xpll8xu0BFQo3arqovJ7IqiTzWD1-CvkqzrOgARDxHvBo4SMGrIjWR78mB02aSOzJ7CWbjFdL7m-V1AtIsL6ID6ov_0idKmRCPeFslN4KL6LhuJ4csk/s200/flipper.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5560209452289500498" /></a><br />Also, on a less serious note. My feet have shrunk. In all respects. I can only put this down to my continued accelerated ageing. To, shiver, what the dentist calls - bone loss - ulp. It became apparent when wearing Christmas present socks (thanks Mum!) - and I looked at these new thin flippers on the end of my normal-sized legs and thought - hello, what happened here? Whose feet are those?...<br />It's Nature again I guess :-)merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.com20tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-58761843393655415792010-12-10T21:32:00.003+00:002010-12-31T21:57:05.798+00:00International Human Rights Day<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEigD-MYE-P5tlhA8pK5PEZVEMXTlBU-jHF7dGTPkTXpQoasp14kZxeUXQ5pDhvbX_ueymSCNJDwUZa3CeH6Hf3EjBEUmImmKMNazCrBGq2DkOYaAlr78kEJgS1O6sUZSGf03NChFXtkjJA/s1600/Human-Rights-Logo.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 300px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEigD-MYE-P5tlhA8pK5PEZVEMXTlBU-jHF7dGTPkTXpQoasp14kZxeUXQ5pDhvbX_ueymSCNJDwUZa3CeH6Hf3EjBEUmImmKMNazCrBGq2DkOYaAlr78kEJgS1O6sUZSGf03NChFXtkjJA/s320/Human-Rights-Logo.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5548820418603632210" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiUO6LGQyxkTleWUKuQxnD8-Irb6yjTtgXXMuGDKGVhvqtnJxUR_hspa6_ZFFuwsFIityNqWX3qxg2EEuXJz-GC9Nkk6GFPZbxHnDX8PsVo3GsvJ_n0J69P4UyITALbgRlj7-oe4nSzyag/s1600/hrd2010_logo_en_standard_baseline_HD2.png"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 190px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiUO6LGQyxkTleWUKuQxnD8-Irb6yjTtgXXMuGDKGVhvqtnJxUR_hspa6_ZFFuwsFIityNqWX3qxg2EEuXJz-GC9Nkk6GFPZbxHnDX8PsVo3GsvJ_n0J69P4UyITALbgRlj7-oe4nSzyag/s320/hrd2010_logo_en_standard_baseline_HD2.png" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5548820287226264882" border="0" /></a><br /><br />Today is <a href="http://www.un.org/en/events/humanrightsday/2010/">International Human Rights Day</a><br /><br />For me this means teamwork. Life isn't a competition. It isn't about the survival of the fittest. It's about all of us: weak and strong. Shoulder to shoulder. Living Together.<br /><br />Speaking and being Heard.<br />Listening and Empathising.<br />Going forwards through Education, Information, Understanding and Choice.<br /><br />I'm not a politician. I'm an average approachable human being that bobs along on the fringe observing - and who likes <span style="font-weight: bold;">people</span>. I do. In all shapes and sizes. I like manners too. And humour.<br /><br />I also need space for silence and reflection. Dignity and respect. Safety and a place to thrive. And be Me.<br /><br />Looking at the bigger picture of life, aged 46: knowing birth, a life span and death - As I see (I think blindingly) what matters to me: inclusion, listening, information, education - I wonder - hey, what matters to you? In the bigger picture?<br /><br />It's all about having a voice. And being heard. Isn't it? <br /><br />Here's to Freedom. Here's to Living the Life we're all Entitled to. Here's to <span style="font-weight: bold;">Us</span>...<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg9U7HEGF7lFNsavC21SGM4IWJK6dcYzDtZCQ7dzM_zNDi0Y1iHoSn1SfBSTyQgNI0mxOkIkjre8HnUCCFvfW2zuk0Vebyff5P472ZejEKT0F-QA7i2C00F3zD_iwnGHjjCwud5bI1urec/s1600/images.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer; width: 199px; height: 254px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg9U7HEGF7lFNsavC21SGM4IWJK6dcYzDtZCQ7dzM_zNDi0Y1iHoSn1SfBSTyQgNI0mxOkIkjre8HnUCCFvfW2zuk0Vebyff5P472ZejEKT0F-QA7i2C00F3zD_iwnGHjjCwud5bI1urec/s400/images.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5548830967988969874" border="0" /></a>merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-56865910891637735852010-11-14T14:55:00.005+00:002010-11-14T15:47:45.571+00:00Onwards and Upwards<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhBIMCZ8WwnmCbAkhV8FojcJ_28ZVyFbUk-N1A7HcBUPVOVzFc3D8iWhJeLaCSWfAc0NnvlKe42iUVmzG1zkRRohW5ALM7WXiNUt8teghQvtM30jxwjhwGWOIZfxvS9ZbQuGI68wah1koA/s1600/ive-Laugh-Love-Sunflower-Posters.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhBIMCZ8WwnmCbAkhV8FojcJ_28ZVyFbUk-N1A7HcBUPVOVzFc3D8iWhJeLaCSWfAc0NnvlKe42iUVmzG1zkRRohW5ALM7WXiNUt8teghQvtM30jxwjhwGWOIZfxvS9ZbQuGI68wah1koA/s400/ive-Laugh-Love-Sunflower-Posters.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5539427601481924146" border="0" /></a><br />It's too wet to garden at home today. This is a shame as I am not working, have no kids here and have - hmm - approx 40 new plants to plant! My workplace has a half-price sale you see.<br /><br />Apart from the bargain aspect and the cheering self up aspect - it's hard not to indulge your natural plant-collecting urges when you are surrounded by respectable people of a certain age darting past you clutching armloads of azaleas and mumbling: Ooh, and look over there, I've always wanted a daphne odora...<br /><br />It's Swoop and Swipe Time!<br /><br />As a result of my spree on Friday, my van, has developed its own micro-climate, it's misted up on the inside as the plants breathe and grow within it. It's a jungle in there, complete with snails and spiders...!<br /><br />Raining raining - I mean I don't mind getting wet, naturally, but the ground <span style="font-style: italic;">is</span> very muddy. And I have just had a bath and sparkled myself up. An unusual enough occurence these days, ahem...<br /><br />Anyway, I've a nice mug of tomato soup! The week's washing is done and drying. I'm snuggled up with a book and awaiting the return of the kids. Tomorrow's another day. Love to all.merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.com16tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-24834433064784611672010-11-08T21:44:00.004+00:002010-11-09T18:11:18.291+00:00RealityI look at my blog this evening and I think - Kate, <span style="font-style: italic;">what</span> are you trying to say? That you live in a comical cheerful yellow world? That everything is light and easy and daft. Hello, what? What bloody nonsense is this?<br />Well of course I don't. None of us live in our blog worlds do we - most of us live in mundane reality. Blogging is merely a projection of ourselves - an image we can tinker with - airbrush and edit -<br /><br />My reality is a fair bit dimmer and darker. It has great bits, sure, full of kids, family and friends. There's work, there's chatter. And then there's great long spells like now - spent in a chair in the kitchen, silent, alone and trying to figure it all out. Trying to reconfigure my life.<br /><br />My man's gone. I'm facing imminent redundancy. I have a lot of stamina but no energy anymore, am generally easily baffled and confused - and I have 3 kids. Who need me. To be strong and ever present.<br /><br />I've divorced, I've moved - set up a new home from scratch. Found a change of career and full time work after 13 years at home. Found Rob, lost him. All in three years.<br /><br />I can't keep going I think. I know. It's time to stop.<br /><br />Then I see my eldest son, who lives with his dad mostly, has sent me this poem. Which he's come across at school and he likes.<br />It comes out of the blue in an email.<br />And I remember my reasons to be.<br />And I send a copy to my own ever present and beloved mum.<br />And I press on.<br /><br />(It is Untitled):<br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold;">Mother, any distance greater than a single span<br />requires a second pair of hands.<br />You come to help me measure windows, pelmets, doors,<br />the acres of the walls, the prairies of the floors.<br /><br />You at the zero-end, me with the spool of tape, recording<br />length, reporting metres, centimetres back to base, then leaving<br />up the stairs, the line still feeding out, unreeling<br />years between us. Anchor. Kite.<br /><br />I space-walk through the empty bedrooms, climb<br />the ladder to the loft, to breaking point, where something<br />has to give;<br />two floors below your fingertips still pinch<br />the last one-hundredth of an inch...I reach<br />towards a hatch that opens on an endless sky<br />to fall or fly.<br /><br /><br />Simon Armitage</span>merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.com16tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-87187844803396505592010-08-28T11:18:00.006+01:002010-09-07T21:31:49.022+01:00Something to Look Forward to at last!!But firstly I must mention age. My own - <br /><br />You see, when I was young, people thought I was older than I was. When I grew older, people took me for younger than I am. Handy that. It's to do with having a calm exterior and a steady face I think. Hmm. Lately, since Rob died, I have unfortunately undergone accelerated ageing. Without and within. Recently in fact a dear little old lady asked me how many grandchildren I had.. Gosh!<br /><br />Anyway, accelerated ageing has made me very slow, possibly calmer too. I no longer worry much, I no longer bellow at the kids (as much!), I prioritise. I face life on a <span style="font-style:italic;">does it really matter?</span> basis. Good things are small things. Being together. Laughing. Getting organised. Being in the sunlight - enjoying a book. The list is endless...<br /><br />So, what is there to look forward to though, in my increasingly older age?<br /><br />Well, at last, I've found something.<br /><br />Yes...<br /><br /><a href="http://www.pashley.co.uk/products/tri-1.html">This:</a><br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">A TRIKE!!!<br /></span><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgnl-6uf6BWKTgsCYWmaQ2o-BvVAn3UK2cdHeZ87GOep3clYUnNIAggCLpOekCvwUNRoo_6ceuqy2b8-uP24qzxipRuLfX4B2CLwB-7gAOWzVzpZ4-a-mIQ4FnNcHqr8nGlAqRyx3d11xo/s1600/main_21.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgnl-6uf6BWKTgsCYWmaQ2o-BvVAn3UK2cdHeZ87GOep3clYUnNIAggCLpOekCvwUNRoo_6ceuqy2b8-uP24qzxipRuLfX4B2CLwB-7gAOWzVzpZ4-a-mIQ4FnNcHqr8nGlAqRyx3d11xo/s320/main_21.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5510403444103203442" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Ah...</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />My three wheeled epiphany follows a great laugh at work, discussing the best present you ever received as a child. Trikes came top of the list for 40 somethings!<br /><br />Well, I suggested, why not revert to trikes post 50? Forget bikes and lycra and road rage - Look at all these wide empty cycle lanes on the roads now. Think trike! greater stability, room for a devil-may-care passenger perched on the back, scope for customisation - I was planning winged mudguards for starters - and oh boy, what beats the thrill of cornering on two wheels...<br /><br />Ahem.<br /><br />Yes, I know. Big Ears had a trike.<br /><br />And I know my kids are going to explode with laughter when they read this...<br /><br />Ah well. I still want one ;-)merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.com22tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-33013961985954564432010-08-12T20:03:00.010+01:002010-08-14T10:15:26.703+01:00TimelessSearching, through books for meaning - as ever. Have a problem? There'll be the answer in a book.<br />I'm in a dark and lonely place in life. Feeling old.<br />Anyway. Bibliophile me. Read this first on a Christmas card, heard it in my head lately, pinned it down just now.<br />This letter was written by <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fra_Giovanni_Giocondo">Fra Giovanni Giocondo</a>. An Italian priest. He was 80 when he wrote this almost 500 years ago. Imparting a lifetime's wisdom to a friend to give them comfort and inspiration. It's timeless and universal advice. And a pep talk!<br />I like it very much -<br /><br />(Typing interrupted by small son asking: "Mum, mum - what are moths afraid of?" Me answering vaguely: " Oh, sunshine?"... Small son doing bored face, me inspired: "Farts?" He chortles. I type on :-)<br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(0, 0, 153);font-size:130%;" >Written on Christmas Eve in 1513.<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);font-size:130%;" ><br /></span><span style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold; color: rgb(0, 0, 153);font-size:130%;" >A Letter to a Friend</span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);font-size:130%;" ><br /><br /></span><span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(0, 0, 153);font-size:130%;" >“I salute you. I am your friend, and my love for you goes deep. There is nothing I can give you which you have not. But there is much, very much, that, while I cannot give it, you can take. No heaven can come to us unless our hearts find rest in it today. Take heaven! No peace lies in the future which is not hidden in this present little instant. Take peace! The gloom of the world is but a shadow. Behind it, yet within our reach, is joy. There is radiance and glory in darkness, could we but see. And to see, we have only to look. I beseech you to look!<br /><br />Life is so generous a giver. But we, judging its gifts by their covering, cast them away as ugly or heavy or hard. Remove the covering, and you will find beneath it a living splendor, woven of love by wisdom, with power. Welcome it, grasp it, and you touch the angel’s hand that brings it to you. Everything we call a trial, a sorrow or a duty, believe me, that angel’s hand is there. The gift is there and the wonder of an overshadowing presence. Your joys, too, be not content with them as joys. They, too, conceal diviner gifts.<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiZ_D4R8gFBucPjJEGOaMun9MaUcnfXSIQD_ZEc1wcX_VgCM2qzKs8C0wJ7YR4eer5-k2vF2eT1dqrYaG5Rrj_J4zeuirbWr81iYugGOpIrLhR67Hb_btgm30mDtNTSzBzsuYnA7lJ5HpM/s1600/Light.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 214px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiZ_D4R8gFBucPjJEGOaMun9MaUcnfXSIQD_ZEc1wcX_VgCM2qzKs8C0wJ7YR4eer5-k2vF2eT1dqrYaG5Rrj_J4zeuirbWr81iYugGOpIrLhR67Hb_btgm30mDtNTSzBzsuYnA7lJ5HpM/s320/Light.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5504655494655992018" border="0" /></a><br /><br />Life is so full of meaning and purpose, so full of beauty beneath its covering, that you will find earth but cloaks your heaven. Courage then to claim it; that is all! But courage you have, and the knowledge that we are pilgrims together, wending through unknown country home.<br /><br />And so, at this time, I greet you, not quite as the world sends greetings, but with profound esteem and with the prayer that for you, now and forever, the day breaks and shadows flee away.”</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold;font-size:130%;" ><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);">Fra Giovanni Giocondo</span></span>merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-10711334537786934112010-07-10T14:17:00.007+01:002010-07-10T18:18:06.090+01:0036 hours of Peace and QuietI've finished work for the day. I am quite dirty and very brown - in key areas only though. My legs for example are snow-white. And frankly they are going to stay that way. I am not doing shorts, nope :-)<br /><br />My kids are at their dad's for the weekend. The older two have just emailed me a cheap but complicated Amazon order for plugs and wires. I believe they are in the middle of an adventurous XBox/laptop project. I'm not too sure, but I'm tremendously proud of them for doing it.<br /><br />I've been reading a lot about grief this last week. (I did contact Cruse but they were Not Helpful - I spoke to a lady who appeared to have bereavement fatigue. Well, it's lucky I have a sense of humour still! It was almost comical! And in fact, I'm not really very good at opening up anyway, especially about something so painful. So it's probably just as well.)<br />So, what I read - There are no rules in grief. It is different for everyone, but there is common ground. I expect that is blindingly obvious really but because I'm mixed up and confused it's validating to see it spelt out.<br />There is commonly:<br /><ul><li>Pain</li><li>Pining</li><li>Confusion<br /></li><li>Numbness<br /></li><li>Anger</li><li>Fear of losing anyone else you love</li><li>A sense of futility</li><li>Craziness - irrational thinking<br /></li><li>The need to talk to your lost one</li><li>A sense of their presence</li></ul>On that last one, I see Rob everywhere, for a split second, in the distance. Feel him nearby, in the same room, but without seeing him. When I'm happy it's a nice feeling. When I'm down, it bloody hurts. Tricks of the mind.<br /><br />But, but I remember - Rob had the same experience after his dog (the actual one and only Mutley) died last year. He looked for him, thought he saw him, felt him nearby too. And he cried sometimes when that happened. (I <span style="font-style: italic;">really</span> loved him for that.)<br /><br />I've also learned :<br /><ol><li>over time you change - significant personal growth occurs -<br /></li><li>It is recommended to express your feelings, be it verbally, creatively or in writing - a journal, letters to your dead loved person<br /></li></ol>Well I do write a lot. When I can, but, privately. And it isn't all sad, a lot of it is happy and funny. I like to think he can read it. No forget the 'like to think' - I think he can. (See, irrational thinking/craziness) Somehow, somewhere he can read it.<br />He always read everything I wrote - and I read everything he wrote. He wrote a lot! It was one of our things - writing. Listening to people and collecting their stories came first. There are great tales of discovery and courage and joy in <span style="font-weight: bold;">everyone</span> I think, if you're patient. Then there was absorbing facts, history and weaving new tales. Then fantasy, pure imagination - and a lot of laughs.<br /><br />I miss him so, terribly. I am less than half of what I was. I get these mental exercises going - stop over-thinking - one day at a time - be happy for what you had - And then, I forget and I just want to tell him something, think I see him and all the exercises fold into a small flat heap. He's not here. He's gone.<br /><br />Right, enough, I'm going out into the garden. Pruning. Big-time :-) There's a jungle down the left-hand side and today is the day...<br /><br />Love to all family and friends that read this. Xmerry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-86723043351090051152010-07-01T11:41:00.008+01:002010-07-01T19:49:29.478+01:00Hope<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhOiYdtmE9NXwRKOBgDgw_XEOU6ckCqkDeTtmijxqjS9aujaMBSLQFNeirPsDi-jYrho5SftpL4JLh-8MGx6OoYVMkaBA9dHxrdHpE6VNgBWRhlH3bhN5wEHhg_Lig83BmEEadm3lxKrno/s1600/sw-70031.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 254px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhOiYdtmE9NXwRKOBgDgw_XEOU6ckCqkDeTtmijxqjS9aujaMBSLQFNeirPsDi-jYrho5SftpL4JLh-8MGx6OoYVMkaBA9dHxrdHpE6VNgBWRhlH3bhN5wEHhg_Lig83BmEEadm3lxKrno/s320/sw-70031.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5488893780332430802" /></a><br />I found a book of poems Rob gave me ages ago - he used to read a poem a day. Every day. For fun.<br /><br />'101 Poems To Keep You Sane' by Daisy Goodwin turned up at just the right time. Excellent - A ray of light - <br /><br />(I wasn't looking for solace - I was actually looking for a Peppa Pig DVD - small son has been sick all night, we are both very tired today although he is chirpy enough to have just eaten a small bowl of pasta and done a little dance along to a song on the radio. After a mere three hours sleep I am beyond dancing unfortunately. My eyes seem to be moving in different directions though...)<br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-weight: bold;">'Hope' is the Thing with Feathers</span><br /></span><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">Emily Dickinson</span></span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">'Hope' is the thing with feathers -</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">That perches in the soul -</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">And sings the tune without the words -</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">And never stops - at all -</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">And sweetest - in the Gale - is heard -</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">And sore must be the storm -</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">That could abash the little Bird</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">That kept so many warm -</span><br /><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">I've heard it in the chillest land -</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">And on the strangest Sea -</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">Yet, never, in Extremity,</span><br /><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">It asked a crumb - of Me. </span><br /><br />That's very moving. It actually makes me smile too. <br /><br />But what am I hoping for? To keep on, I guess. Not get lost.<br /> <br />I am grieving - that is as it should be. Grief is painful, it makes me slow and confused. But I keep busy - I work physically hard in the day on a farm, 45 hours a week. I listen to an iPod, I chatter, I join in socially - Yet, truthfully, there is this pervading sense of futility - I spend a lot of time fighting that one. <br /><br />I just want him to come back. I want this whole time of emptiness and devastation and crap since 21st May 2010 to have been a giant error. <br /><br />And he can't come back and it isn't an error. He is gone.<br /><br />Hello futility.<br /><br />I'm not signalling distress in saying that. No. I have family and friends who are strong, kind and lovely , I'm very fortunate. And most importantly I have my boys to bring up.<br /><br />Hope. A little feathered thing. Yes, this poem brings me light. If I can't feel hopeful now I'll just hold onto this poem. Pin it up on the wall. Learn the words of 'Hope' by heart until hope itself is in my heart.merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-65399779786997656222010-06-12T21:57:00.020+01:002010-06-17T21:25:17.351+01:00Love and Respect<span style="font-style: italic;font-size:130%;" >Robert Chambers - Mutley the Dog</span><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 51, 51);">I have put the eulogy I wrote for Rob, that was read out at his funeral, online here:</span><br /><a style="color: rgb(0, 102, 0);" href="http://cheekymonkeychatters.blogspot.com/">Mutley the Dog</a><br /><span style="color: rgb(102, 51, 51);">(the blogspot cheeky monkey chatters is a place where I left him a valentine this year)</span><br /><br />Sadly, his blogs have been removed from the net.<br />Shockingly, I received an email from him last week, stating this.<br />It was written by his ex-wife. She has also removed him from our shared private blog - In my Dreams - a place where I'd been pouring out grief. Privately.<br />(Part of sudden death I've discovered is an inability to accept someone's departure. We were still talking, still listening, still joking, still cuddling.)<br /><br />Rob lived alone these last three years. He died but a few days from Divorce Absolute.<br /><br />Words fail me entirely.<br /><br />Well, I will say this - She has done much good for him, there are children involved and I understand that she grieves too.<br /><br />I do not think that blogging should be controlled. I think that what we write, what we feel, how we connect with each other should remain forever available. Rob was a lifelong champion of human rights and freedom of speech. He reached out to many people here on blogger at dark times as you know and in life he worked for justice and equality, most recently supporting victims of crime. I am certain he'd have disapproved - of anyone being silenced in such a fashion.<br /><br />Perhaps though, perhaps - he would have understood.. <br /><br />I've nothing more to say, nor will, to his ex-wife. I wish her well. Sincerely.<br />I have my health and sanity to maintain now. Grief is complex. And I've a family to bring up. Three lively boys. My youngest is 5.<br /><br />Rob was wonderful, funny, kind and clever. Even better in real life than on the net. In my experience of him these last two years :-<br /><ul><li>he was <span style="font-weight: bold;">not</span> in alcoholic decline, </li><li>he did <span style="font-weight: bold;">not</span> die on the brink of organ failure </li><li>and - he most certainly does <span style="font-weight: bold;">not</span> have boring brothers!</li></ul><br />He was a cheerful, independent man who liked his beer (real ale only!) and who, as is now known but too damn late, had a bad heart. Sometimes he was very low, aren't we all - "I'm sad about a sad thing" he'd insist. And then, he'd become distracted by something interesting, something worthwhile and his spirits would return to their usual setting of - Happy! - His cause of death is yet to be pinpointed but I comfort myself entirely with this knowledge - having laid on his bed the next morning - he passed on peacefully in his sleep with no suffering, just dignity.<br /><br />His brothers are much like him, kind, clever and private. I'm kind and private too, but not as clever though! I would have been very proud to have been an honorary member of their family.<br /><br />Alas.<br /><br />Rob - I would like you to be remembered with smiles and affection by all you encountered here on the net, may your mischievous spirit live on forever. Love and respect darling - that's all that matters. And maybe now, like so many creatives before, you may be discovered and published. Posthumously damnit! But published perhaps - who knows.<br /><br />Grief I'm finding is the most debilitating thing. Confusing, numbing and extremely painful. In brighter moments I imagine Rob making his usual daft comments beside me, pulling faces, cheering me up, spurring me on. At other times I feel that the future is entirely pointless. Futile. Because simply, unbearably, he isn't here.<br /><br />I have my three beautiful boys thank God.<br /><br />I press on.<br /><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">With many thanks to all who have helped me, commented and emailed. And much love to Wife in the North, Ubermouth, Miss Smack and Electro-Kev - who were all true friends to Rob when it mattered most<br /></span>merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-30299248953829263242010-05-26T10:04:00.009+01:002010-05-26T11:36:28.562+01:00Rob (mutley the dog)<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiqR-oDufbyR0anSTh7lxmf7VD1brWp9Mxg3rvOlX_oU75_uekzVb6Sv7BuoONvmzGKCqTOBAZrNFyE_WplgQIY1qyPtIm1Eq_Xg4_EGEGEcw0IUsTZndrnNHLyoOFl3K5XTU_du2Ls5ns/s1600/mutleythe+dog.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 150px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiqR-oDufbyR0anSTh7lxmf7VD1brWp9Mxg3rvOlX_oU75_uekzVb6Sv7BuoONvmzGKCqTOBAZrNFyE_WplgQIY1qyPtIm1Eq_Xg4_EGEGEcw0IUsTZndrnNHLyoOFl3K5XTU_du2Ls5ns/s320/mutleythe+dog.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5475511050157164530" /></a><br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">2nd January 1964 - 21st May 2010</span><br /><br />My best friend and soulmate died last Friday. Tributes have flooded in from blogland. He would have been so touched. He said he loved to make people laugh. Give them a smile. And when they replied with "Thanks Rob, that cheered me up!" he was pleased no end.<br /><br />I wanted to write him a celebration post. But you know what, I think you guys have already done that, many times over! ( I'm smiling!)<br /><br />His funeral details are at <a href="http://robert.chambers.gonetoosoon.org/.">robert.chambers.gonetoosoon.org</a><br />All family and friends know they are very welcome. If any one has any requests, please contact the funeral director and I'll be happy to do whatever is necessary.<br /><br />I have to say that now, today, after visiting the funeral director, I'm stepping back. It's been a long journey travelled in what, five days, a tour right through Rob's world. (If you thought he was a man of many mysteries, well, yes, he was!) (Smiling again!) I'm basically a kind and sensitive soul and now, unsurprisingly, I'm pretty much overwhelmed.<br /><br />I've to pick up my life and restructure it.<br />There won't be a bright red car pulling up outside my house anymore, there won't be a key in the door, a step on the stairs and a big hug and a bag chock full of little goodies - anymore.<br /><br />I miss him more than I can bear.<br /><br />Oh don't be so sentimental! he'd say, what, miss an old fart like me?!<br /><br />Being with Rob gave me a spring in my step, an easy smile and a sense of purpose, of life well-lived. We had a great laugh. And a great love. <br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhfKyhigogHMfYaozMXqk0bHeo2jd0YuauGqdv0N4eijJcT39AlMlFHHv4mqtnz3A9-CzBSSjfDHxIhfI9b7bJYPogkeZXkWXwkMhqTfAN_M7FdyGiln2G0DPLi-6hcE9nvI7Xcc4gRMrw/s1600/Rob.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 198px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhfKyhigogHMfYaozMXqk0bHeo2jd0YuauGqdv0N4eijJcT39AlMlFHHv4mqtnz3A9-CzBSSjfDHxIhfI9b7bJYPogkeZXkWXwkMhqTfAN_M7FdyGiln2G0DPLi-6hcE9nvI7Xcc4gRMrw/s320/Rob.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5475509550536930274" border="0" /></a><br /><br />Till the next time darling...<br /><br /><br />;-)merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-27648444988109004152010-03-14T10:57:00.009+00:002010-07-04T12:41:47.926+01:00Mother's Day<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgaYnQSCikco_G8Kqu-zgUWn5sxa4tIZ-Gmsh4uNnbsrw9XAjWRX_0YckYq6gCroLoTRVFSQrcD-5OUBf0KX_-qk1zsnHC7EHDyZ_eumhcedxxIpoXcmGo4WRqVvq6FMJiin5Va0vNO86A/s1600-h/Primrose.JPG"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 400px; height: 300px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgaYnQSCikco_G8Kqu-zgUWn5sxa4tIZ-Gmsh4uNnbsrw9XAjWRX_0YckYq6gCroLoTRVFSQrcD-5OUBf0KX_-qk1zsnHC7EHDyZ_eumhcedxxIpoXcmGo4WRqVvq6FMJiin5Va0vNO86A/s400/Primrose.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5448452345459859586" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br />Today I am celebrating my Mum -<br /><br /><br />and all the warm hugs from the one who taught us to be kind, not to judge, to look past the broken bits and find the best. Who could always see the new shoots...<br /><br />The spider catcher!!<br /><br />The mighty bonfire digger, foot resting on fork, content in the dusk.<br /><br />Who has always loved our kids dearly. And saved us from insanity, by giving them her full and patient attention - books shared, games played, headaches soothed, tempers calmed, smiles and easy laughter restored - reminding us gently that they were only ever simply being... kids.<br /><br />Who has sent out a hundred and one timely parcels of books and chocolate, toys and crayons, ski socks and gardening gloves; with a little note in a beautiful card saying - well done, keep going....<br /><br />Who has always listened thoughtfully to long-winded news of our latest developments, and never judged (<span style="font-style: italic;">but</span> occasionally adopted a special mumsy perplexed expression which is followed by: "So..... what have you actually done?" Eyebrows only slightly betraying alarm).<br /><br />Who has accepted so much. Who has worn her knees out in church praying some days. Who grows plants, family and serenity.. With grace..<br /><br />Much love to you Mum, today and all days, from all four of us.<br /><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 153);font-size:130%;" ><br /></span><span style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic; color: rgb(0, 0, 153);font-size:130%;" >Celebrating our Mum!</span>merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.com20tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-42694770884684340742008-12-11T21:41:00.004+00:002010-03-13T10:56:38.756+00:00Pressing Merrily OnIt was an <span style="font-style:italic;">easy</span> mistake to make. Especially at a time like this, Christmas coming, credit crunch munching, hair growing - longer and longer -<br /><br />I mean <span style="font-style:italic;">anyone</span> with as rambling a hairstyle as mine, <span style="font-style:italic;">anyone</span> as short of time and cash, <span style="font-style:italic;">anyone</span> feeling as unduly accomplished with their pruning shears as me - <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: italic;">anyone</span> could have made the <span style="">very same</span> mistake...<br /><br /><div>Couldn't they?</div><div><br />Have given themselves a full Milly-Molly-Mandy haircut I mean. <div>In their middle years.<br /><br />One minute I was peering happily into the bathroom mirror, <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;">snip, snip</span>, humming softly, feeling pleased, thinking - crikey, I can't really focus so well up close any more... ah well, never mind, press on.... hum, hum, <span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: bold;">snip, snip</span> -<br /><br />and the next minute as I laid down the scissors - ta dah!! There she was in the mirror, peering back at me, a little older than I recall -<br /><br />Oh no...<br /><br />What! <div> <a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjwcZLPif9yKzORqil9w26q4YcbDW8pXBFnOlqBrAW9dA7EvHmKZX5ORVSRvGtt-UKwJDuAkqxIuWVVte5t6a7xA_7q37q9RSTJrLKiOkrouAJQV4CBDgnbQd1sP2YRTVklCOHGoKeDcMM/s1600-h/milly_molly_mandy_1.jpg"><img style="float:right; margin:0 0 10px 10px;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 110px; height: 127px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjwcZLPif9yKzORqil9w26q4YcbDW8pXBFnOlqBrAW9dA7EvHmKZX5ORVSRvGtt-UKwJDuAkqxIuWVVte5t6a7xA_7q37q9RSTJrLKiOkrouAJQV4CBDgnbQd1sP2YRTVklCOHGoKeDcMM/s400/milly_molly_mandy_1.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5278637538689111698" /></a><br /><br />Hnnnnn!!<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size:x-large;">s*******t!!! </span></span><br /><br />It has taken an eternity</div><div>and a magnifying glass<br /><div>to get it all,<div>nicely,</div><div>back </div><div>to normal....</div><div><br /><br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhtNH-axB5yhljI7WMjQcYPElvon-UzAnolLKJzYZG1HfVBK3KDYjE6wm7YSyJTG7d9E0EDuyzVcFvixcw3zZ3BHVIevsAnryA-b47u_TW4XA4snMyvI4lujoGBhuJkBjuTKXOBIptU0xE/s1600-h/hair-style-picture-big-hair-bouffent-banlon1964-haircuts.jpg"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 144px; height: 200px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhtNH-axB5yhljI7WMjQcYPElvon-UzAnolLKJzYZG1HfVBK3KDYjE6wm7YSyJTG7d9E0EDuyzVcFvixcw3zZ3BHVIevsAnryA-b47u_TW4XA4snMyvI4lujoGBhuJkBjuTKXOBIptU0xE/s200/hair-style-picture-big-hair-bouffent-banlon1964-haircuts.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5278638290710234450" /></a><br /></div></div></div></div><br /><br /><br /><br />Yet I have!!<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Ok, I exaggerate a little,<br />but only, I regret to say,<br />a tad...<div><br /><br /></div></div>merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.com21tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-51150019113111483902008-11-01T23:14:00.001+00:002008-11-01T23:57:31.133+00:00November<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiuAxE3jo4TVMsZ8o3CPhZjIVx2g5DaNtM04Xbd-1SfxgLV4HnOAM1F9rHXTX40IZG3AZkkcugSfch_esEVAua7VQbjRTWKa6Yk9ZQNUA9GbWKgoR_Fb322-U0VXCNkQhj_S1U5VU1Mn5A/s1600-h/iStock_000006226792XSmall.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 214px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiuAxE3jo4TVMsZ8o3CPhZjIVx2g5DaNtM04Xbd-1SfxgLV4HnOAM1F9rHXTX40IZG3AZkkcugSfch_esEVAua7VQbjRTWKa6Yk9ZQNUA9GbWKgoR_Fb322-U0VXCNkQhj_S1U5VU1Mn5A/s320/iStock_000006226792XSmall.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5263828218139483906" border="0" /></a><br /><span style="font-size:130%;"><span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">"In preparing the soil for planting, you will need several tools. Dynamite would be a beautiful thing to use, but it would have a tendency to get the dirt into the front-hall and track up the stairs"<br /></span><span style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0);"><span style="font-size:85%;">(Robert Benchley)</span></span></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Exactly! This month, to my great relief, my creaking knees have shaped up nicely after digging out a patio. I'm proud of them. Sadly, my wrists have slightly let the side down and gone all tired and spindly, after carrying away the top soil and bringing in the stone. Ah well.<br /><br />Still, my mother, bless her, has kitted me out most thoughtfully with knee pads and wrist supports. And so, fork and trowel in hand, I look much like a 44 year old mutant ninja turtle, on my way to work each day... But they are helping, I'm strong again. And I'm not complaining, or muttering... about trusses! I'm grinning!<br /><br />There is so very little time to blog these days. Right now I really ought to be revising the properties of soil (for an evening class exam), or making a trolley dash in Asda, or tackling the plastic toy mountain that has all but engulfed small son's room, or or cleansing and polishing something...<br /><br />But... I'm here instead. And soon I will be visiting you dear reader! Er, if I have any readers left that is. (Iota, see, I paid attention!!)<br /><br />This blogging - this tiny first person broadcast - newsletter - ranting space - corner for a giggle - cyber cat-flap into personal space - who knows what this is. But it's great fun and it works. You make a place, express yourself and find friends all over the world. What could be better!<br /><br />I'm no good at telling the truth in my blog. I would rather extract my eyeballs than talk about my real daily life. I mean it. Well, everything I have ever said here is true, particularly the chocolate bits, but I have left an awful lot out this last year. It's been busy.<br /><br />And now, roughly since I started blogging, a year and a half ago -<br />I, Merry Weather,<br />have proudly given birth to an elephant...<br /><br />No, no, of course not!! I have done something else altogether. I have let go of being Mrs No-One and become Myself: independent, happy-hearted, hard-working, one day at a time, devoted mother of three me...<br /><br /><br />And there've been crappy times, sure. But there's been a lot to be glad about: <br />I found the right work, I know I can provide for my kids, I'm strong, I've made all sorts of new friends, I bob along surviving - and I'm so happy for that.<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXDguEpZVMmQqQFlMcwWNS8s9rh21IJhpnh4fVLDUqd1c7Co3-o_QLz1n5gluS6SS0voBPapS1Eo-UuGur93IM9vDBDBLmDZh8Pki1Ql4Cv9EEQmjzmK0yG8g1H8-8lDNCyJpF4XwL0HI/s1600-h/Cauliflower.JPG"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 172px; height: 189px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgXDguEpZVMmQqQFlMcwWNS8s9rh21IJhpnh4fVLDUqd1c7Co3-o_QLz1n5gluS6SS0voBPapS1Eo-UuGur93IM9vDBDBLmDZh8Pki1Ql4Cv9EEQmjzmK0yG8g1H8-8lDNCyJpF4XwL0HI/s320/Cauliflower.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5263840442366866146" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgbvQtBK4X2UNhyUkyeAPCW6Kna1tzxT4MlOXLi9TljekZatZZ6tjAihxVN6C3eB3OvaGNS5_yAnBMDyexc0Pq1xh8467wb4LY2lDfm-X2dFYJuX4JpYw8F_c7kl5BUaHukhOZHwa0f0rs/s1600-h/800px-Cyclamens.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgbvQtBK4X2UNhyUkyeAPCW6Kna1tzxT4MlOXLi9TljekZatZZ6tjAihxVN6C3eB3OvaGNS5_yAnBMDyexc0Pq1xh8467wb4LY2lDfm-X2dFYJuX4JpYw8F_c7kl5BUaHukhOZHwa0f0rs/s320/800px-Cyclamens.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5263719062179477826" border="0" /></a><br />Um, seasonal stuff!merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.com18tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-63246403409185248902008-10-05T16:02:00.001+01:002008-10-05T16:55:44.763+01:00Reasons To Be Cheerful!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjeJ-Xl1zq34eEpyonK4t3a1CCemSu07fC6DgTqha5HG8oD1K2QGhSa40M1dR8yaT188EeVEwhpbJbIIara96sxtumnM6YlcOEXDsJCuPhNFZazU08Qg1oP6zHCee6wwSANe_ssyw3IE-U/s1600-h/41TSC0BS0DL._SL500_AA240_.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjeJ-Xl1zq34eEpyonK4t3a1CCemSu07fC6DgTqha5HG8oD1K2QGhSa40M1dR8yaT188EeVEwhpbJbIIara96sxtumnM6YlcOEXDsJCuPhNFZazU08Qg1oP6zHCee6wwSANe_ssyw3IE-U/s200/41TSC0BS0DL._SL500_AA240_.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5252303538868073250" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ian_Dury">Ian Dury</a>. A man for all seasons - cheeky, clever, gifted. The world's a poorer place without him. I've been listening to his music again lately. And again! It doesn't date, quite brilliant.<br /><br />I haven't blogged for a while - real life can get in the way of blogging don't you find? In a good way though. I'm a darn sight more cheerful than I was last October. My mid-life crisis, useful in many ways, has done it's job and is now mentally filed under "completed" in my head. I have emerged from it feeling - younger! Happier! Well, I lie, not counting my knees... my knees are not speaking to me at the moment. They creak horribly... and ache sometimes, a bit. It's working outdoors that does it. Still, I'm hopeful they'll come up to speed with the rest of me early in the New Year... It's that or surgery!! <br /><br />(I exaggerate Mum... Really!)<br /><br />Things that make me cheerful now include:<br /><ul><li>the Indian Summer we just had </li><li>Working hard and earning real Cash</li><li>my Kids - growing up stronger, getting on together, playing chess and poker (thanks Mum!)<br /></li><li>Being myself - independent, confident... </li><li>my beloved Van</li><li>Having 200% more energy than 10 years ago *<br /></li><li>Friends - who make me laugh and more besides... </li></ul><br />And so on, so forth. Carpe Diem!<br /><br /> <br /><br />* By the way, Merry Weather is powered by Cadbury's Crunchie bars most days... Hey, I wonder if they'd sponsor me?<br /><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjHFJ0yS64bEmd1uh5HPtJ7B_9uuhz-1AiaKt4MPBfGhHewo31zI5lr6UNvDM1BoJ51XLXl7N7hziOiAzRWb2kiGUiD8t37-cO9TTRlyeqvIIHsFgVlMbfgqmRrnPlIVUtuWhFG2cCiPyU/s1600-h/choclatesmiley.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjHFJ0yS64bEmd1uh5HPtJ7B_9uuhz-1AiaKt4MPBfGhHewo31zI5lr6UNvDM1BoJ51XLXl7N7hziOiAzRWb2kiGUiD8t37-cO9TTRlyeqvIIHsFgVlMbfgqmRrnPlIVUtuWhFG2cCiPyU/s200/choclatesmiley.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5253697065781031522" /></a>merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.com17tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-70493526345260377752008-08-08T23:19:00.010+01:002010-07-29T00:13:09.186+01:00August<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEilIfexGQ9nBvofpt1utWT03hi0oApwBXRvmyQRk033d4gLXxZJdaAGM_oHvshdrakwMAO7PzP0DEk78fJd0eX-GrRIw6LYyfF8cAS1jVVA8qe8sKSNkW65Hbec8z01CbOLKMIJVLlBGdI/s1600-h/normandie_l_1_1.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEilIfexGQ9nBvofpt1utWT03hi0oApwBXRvmyQRk033d4gLXxZJdaAGM_oHvshdrakwMAO7PzP0DEk78fJd0eX-GrRIw6LYyfF8cAS1jVVA8qe8sKSNkW65Hbec8z01CbOLKMIJVLlBGdI/s400/normandie_l_1_1.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5232275339173479282" border="0" /></a><br /><br />Off on holiday - all aboard the skylark -<br /><br />Here is my packing list so far:<br />30 pairs of socks and underpants<br />1 full jar of travel sickness pills<br />1 complete set of Pixar DVDs <br />Most important of all - 1 in-car DVD player (best money I have ever ever spent) <br /><br />I've double locked and fondly patted my gardening van at least twenty times and soon we're off on holiday to France. For a grand family reunion. Yippee. Ten days in an historic manoir with all the long-lost, far-flung relations - I can hardly wait!<br /><br />Well, not quite true, I can wait a bit. It's no good if there's nothing to worry about...I am slightly worried about getting out of England. This is because my dear old dad - the senior organiser - has somehow accidentally nominated middle son, aged 10, as our entire group leader with Brittany Ferries. Yes. Although he is tall and willing, I fear he may have trouble driving the cars into the hold... Hey ho, don't sweat the small stuff I say! Everything will be great.<br /><br />It'll bear no relation to this journey of course - Doris Day/Calamity Jane - ah - just caught my fancy. En passant, you know :)<br /><br /><object width="425" height="349"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/DdHFacoZy9s&hl=en&fs=1&rel=0&color1=0x2b405b&color2=0x6b8ab6&border=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/DdHFacoZy9s&hl=en&fs=1&rel=0&color1=0x2b405b&color2=0x6b8ab6&border=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="349"></embed></object><br /><br /><br />Happy Holidays to All!!merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.com21tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-29196793053664144652008-07-14T20:09:00.000+01:002008-07-14T20:11:48.254+01:00Too Many Whys And Not Enough Zzzzs<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgJVXb97G8Aod_ewyDXo712FkudCHw-N-_oEVoMnDXzt2kFcGbBNlRFj7Yozwf223gzxidMkQx_Qme9_jIsRkkwQD3C06xA2teSdm0kz16fQvjZ5FJzavnavs_e-6ti859BTjDOjzdhhzE/s1600-h/800px-Tree_lion_2.jpg"><img style="cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgJVXb97G8Aod_ewyDXo712FkudCHw-N-_oEVoMnDXzt2kFcGbBNlRFj7Yozwf223gzxidMkQx_Qme9_jIsRkkwQD3C06xA2teSdm0kz16fQvjZ5FJzavnavs_e-6ti859BTjDOjzdhhzE/s320/800px-Tree_lion_2.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5222255941628068418" border="0"></a><br /><br />At work, as a gardener, they call me the land girl. You know, the wartime women workers thing. This is because I look eager, wear boots, trot about smartish and smile a lot. Apparently. Well everyone else has a name and I don't mind - it could be worse! Actually, being called girl is in itself rather charming, I am 44 after all. <br /><br />And I have two jobs now, one on a farm and the other as a landscaper. I have recently bought my own van! A nice green one to carry a mower and tools. Plus a maximum of two children at any one time. Arguments in the cab strictly forbidden, whilst mother masters six gears and no rear view mirror. And sweats. And swears. A bit.<br /><br />Buying it has been an experience. Real vans are sold and owned by real men, I've discovered, women are often offered little chi-chi things that are either hugely expensive or just downright embarrassing. I told the man at Ford that I needed space for a large mower and up to 20 bags of green waste. He walked me half a mile round the back of his showroom to show me a hideous little handbag of a van, lined with lurid carpet. A kind of passion wagon for gnomes. He said do you want to test drive it? I said not if you paid me, where do you expect me to put the mower in here then? It's actually bigger than this van... In the end, I bought one from - a woman. Simple really.<br /><br />I press on cheerfully. I'm happy! Yet there are so many questions to answer when you're new, fresh and confident:<br /><br />Are you strong enough?<br />Can you give me a full breakdown of the pesticides used on these potatoes?<br />Do you think you can make enough money to pay for the van alone?<br />Exactly how much money have you made?<br />What are the best plants for a bog? (Errm?)<br />Are you spending enough time with the kids? <br />Can I just press that button once Mum, and see what happens?<br />What a wicked scythe! Could I wave it around a bit in the garage, by myself? (NO)<br />Will you talk me through a year of caring for this raspberry cane?<br /><br />And so on. All good fun.<br /><br />I am tired by evening though. The other night I dropped the boys off at judo and fell fast asleep in the car outside the hall, engine off but still wearing my seatbelt. I woke up later with a start to find the kids tapping on the window and not one but two policemen staring right at me, all chilly and enquiring. Another question? I took the seatbelt off and waved. What now for Chrissakes? Just because I'm grubby and unconscious doesn't mean I'm a lawbreaker or a bad parent now does it. I'm just multi-tasking. Oh or something like that!merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.com21tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-72611624186962259982008-06-25T20:36:00.000+01:002008-06-25T21:43:46.578+01:00From Hilaire Belloc<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjbzBdRfJ8mLarTxcSCk6v0Cbt8n-6yl02siCx_2BXMa-iw7zDXCif425AVGwa7cS-Lam7njAOlnBbY-Lh7an5rR2CsLmhbFnOdge7qTwXYNxXpzZLZmNoBTiNL__F_PgS4oQWKolNcoE/s1600-h/3352812.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjbzBdRfJ8mLarTxcSCk6v0Cbt8n-6yl02siCx_2BXMa-iw7zDXCif425AVGwa7cS-Lam7njAOlnBbY-Lh7an5rR2CsLmhbFnOdge7qTwXYNxXpzZLZmNoBTiNL__F_PgS4oQWKolNcoE/s200/3352812.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5215909437593951122" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhAPhG97AFxZinJe-xbT_5Rg7jWmbS5ct9b4CEfigxpSBs6up6R8uOwze9zwe9rSZc6PGl0Ft7w-_vsHYbaXQdV1ZscUCiiDJGw4toR6A59hGA2s2NbB6NP0tRVig_gp1chR8AHQQL2EZY/s1600-h/zpage010.gif"><img style="margin: 0pt 0pt 10px 10px; float: right; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhAPhG97AFxZinJe-xbT_5Rg7jWmbS5ct9b4CEfigxpSBs6up6R8uOwze9zwe9rSZc6PGl0Ft7w-_vsHYbaXQdV1ZscUCiiDJGw4toR6A59hGA2s2NbB6NP0tRVig_gp1chR8AHQQL2EZY/s320/zpage010.gif" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5215908872519059106" border="0" /></a><br /><a href="http://sidmouth-town.blogspot.com/">Lady Thinker</a> has passed me a book meme post, for fun - to choose a book from my shelf and quote a passage from p123...<br /><br />Lady T, it has taken me ages, on and off, exploring my page 123's. I could find nothing really interesting on any of them! Most of the good bits were on the other pages, oddly enough.<br /><br />What I would have liked to do would be to type out a paragraph from PG Wodehouse. Any one of his p123's might have been great I'm sure! I love his writing, so finely crafted and so so funny - laugh out loud, chuckle chuckle stuff.<br /><br />Unfortunately, I have none of his books here at home - because my parents have a complete set and I always read them when I stay at their place.<br /><br />(No realistically I <span style="font-style: italic;">collapse</span> at their place)<br /><br />OK, so in the absence of PG, I found Hilaire Belloc's Cautionary Verses (for children) roosting in one of the kids' rooms -<br /><br />From: <span style="font-weight: bold;"> About John - Who lost a fortune by Throwing Stones </span><br /><br /><div style="text-align: left;">...As time went on declining Health<br />Transmogrified this Man of Wealth;<br />And it was excellently clear<br />That Uncle Bill's demise was near.<br /><br />At last his sole idea of fun<br />Was sitting snoozling in the sun<br />So once, when he would<br />Take the air,<br />They wheeled him in his<br />Patent chair<br /><br />(By "They", I mean his Nurse, who came<br />From Dorchester upon the Thame:<br />Miss Charming was the Nurse's name.)<br />To where beside a little wood<br />A long abandoned green-house stood,<br />And there he sank into a doze<br />Of senile and inept repose.<br /><br />But not for long his drowsy ease!<br />A stone came whizzing through the trees,<br />And caught him smartly in the eye.<br />He woke with an appalling cry,<br />And shrieked in agonising tones:<br />"Oh Lord! Whoever's throwing stones!"<br /><br />Miss Charming,<br />who was standing near,<br />Said: "That was<br />Master John, I fear!"<br /><br />"Go get my Ink-Pot and my Quill,<br />My Blotter and my Famous Will."<br />Miss Charming flew as though on wings<br />To fetch these necessary things,<br />And Uncle William ran his pen<br />Through "well-beloved John", and then<br />Proceeded, in the place of same,<br />To substitute Miss Charming's name:<br /><br />Who now resides in Portman Square<br />and is accepted everywhere.<br /></div><br /><br />Hmm, perfect verse I think!merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4529864956472331094.post-26640449818258885552008-06-15T12:01:00.003+01:002008-06-15T23:08:58.308+01:00A Job at Last!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg6U9hhY8Sw1zoCz_YFvG0ULQTkyiwdrYlG8a37HyAKtkhYW3YzYUyUn3n8nioh6bX5EYecNKkae78q7jY8koclOTWc5Keo6zyvzFECvu8lT3yG5gwQehtwJpoP93rSeCXvzs8GuqxcYYQ/s1600-h/P1010123.JPG"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg6U9hhY8Sw1zoCz_YFvG0ULQTkyiwdrYlG8a37HyAKtkhYW3YzYUyUn3n8nioh6bX5EYecNKkae78q7jY8koclOTWc5Keo6zyvzFECvu8lT3yG5gwQehtwJpoP93rSeCXvzs8GuqxcYYQ/s320/P1010123.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5212058866965889506" /></a><br />I found this fallen rose last week and thought I'd leave it here - so many textures, shades and such a scent - well, it's a shame there's no smell feature on Blogger!<br /><br />I have good news: a job at last! The landscape gardening company I've been with spending time with recently, on work experience, have taken me on full time. I am really really pleased! <br /><br />This comes in spite of somersaulting spectacularly through a rockery last week, whilst uprooting a giant weed... I don't know what it was called, a kind of hairy rhubarb sort of triffid?? Whatever it was it had very long stubborn roots...<br /><br />I'm looking forward to much more of this sort of thing - with a <span style="font-weight:bold;"><span style="font-style:italic;">happy heart!!</span></span><br /><br />(And a crash helmet - )merry weatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15790847146645006254noreply@blogger.com23